Writer's Block

They say when you have writers block, you should start writing down fragments or words that come to your mind or that you cant seem to get out of your head. Here goes:

What does a smile really hold?
Confusion
Frustrated
Why is it so hard to the people that care about you the most to show it?
Closed off
I want to be closer
When does this all end?
Isolated
Is all of this worth being a good friend?
Do people always say what they mean/mean what they say?
I do not feel that it is naive to believe that there is still good in all people.

"Half my life
is in books' written pages
Lived and learned from fools and
from sages
You know it's true
All the things come back to you"
this song is the only thing that understands me right now.

Do not stand at my grave and weep

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.
Do not stand at my grave bereft
I am not there. I have not left.

By Mary Elizabeth Frye

i love poetry. this is a very strong statement and extremely sentimental. hits home.

Clarity

If shelter shall find its way to my feet, I will not deny it of its purpose. I will allow it in my state of vulnerability to cast its shadows upon me; to see my faults, weaknesses, strengths and forthcoming's. My priorities shall become clearer and others fall to the wayside. Hope allows my tainted heart to find at least a dim glimmer of light tolead my way to a brighter path; even if it shall be unbeaten.

Growing Pains

When is it safe to say that you’ve had enough? How does one feel okay with saying “uncle” when the other parties aren’t ready to throw in their towel? A caring heart can only handle so much until it is spread too thin and torn. Expectations, when disappointed, throw daggers at the bull’s eye. Often said that it is better to be stabbed in the front than the back; is it possible to want to be oblivious as to who has caused this sharp pain? Instances have proven that time heals all wounds however, does it rebuild the burnt bridges with ashes still smoldering beneath it? Or, on the other hand, does it leave a liability between the smoke clouds consuming the progress of the bridge? Does this allot for the river running beneath it to put out the ashes and clear the smoke to see the reality for what it is? And on that note, will the reality be the same or molded into a mirage to fool a kind heart into a bad situation? As we grow older, there are more catch 22’s than hard truths and honest situations. Many viewpoints differ when conversing on this subject yet it is a safe bet to assume one has endured a situation leaving the bitter feelings often spoken about.

Furthermore, when is closure appropriate? How does one know when “uncle” should be said aloud? Human nature brings to the forefront of our minds the guilt of closing chapters and starting new ones without dog-earring pages or going back to read the little foot notes we scribbled down on the way through our previous chapters. Growing up matures our minds and helps us better understand the messy, cracked wooden steps that have so conveniently been placed along our beaten path. Knowing that patience is a virtue is one of the many hardest lessons to learn throughout life however, as in Rabbi Nahman’s words, "If we won't be better tomorrow than we are today, then what do we need tomorrow for?"

What are you thankful for?

Merry Christmas Eve/Christmas everyone!

What are you thankful for? I would love to hear your feedback!

<3

Reflecting

Dear sweet Jesus, is it the holidays or what? As much as I love the holidays, it can be some of the most stressful times of the year! Working retail doesnt help either :) but either way, i have a job! So i am very thankful!

As stressful as these days can be, it is important to keep in mind that it can always be worse. I have found that a lot of people forget to be thankful and smile for those who may be having hard times.

Smile everyone! Enjoy everyday! Life will be so much better and brighter!

2 dozen "i love you's" from halfway across the world

Often said by many females, "I am not used to this type of treatment. I'm so used to being independent and doing for myself that I don't feel right getting these types of things." You, my friends, are among the many, including myself. As the new year is shining its beaming lights, it's time to embrace these favors and not to question them! Allow yourself to be treated like an absolute queen! You deserve it!

And to all you men out there, treat your lady like a lady. Tomorrow, she may find someone that does. "Realize what you have" as one of my very close friends, Courtney, says.

Have a wonderful evening my loves!