Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Growing Pains

When is it safe to say that you’ve had enough? How does one feel okay with saying “uncle” when the other parties aren’t ready to throw in their towel? A caring heart can only handle so much until it is spread too thin and torn. Expectations, when disappointed, throw daggers at the bull’s eye. Often said that it is better to be stabbed in the front than the back; is it possible to want to be oblivious as to who has caused this sharp pain? Instances have proven that time heals all wounds however, does it rebuild the burnt bridges with ashes still smoldering beneath it? Or, on the other hand, does it leave a liability between the smoke clouds consuming the progress of the bridge? Does this allot for the river running beneath it to put out the ashes and clear the smoke to see the reality for what it is? And on that note, will the reality be the same or molded into a mirage to fool a kind heart into a bad situation? As we grow older, there are more catch 22’s than hard truths and honest situations. Many viewpoints differ when conversing on this subject yet it is a safe bet to assume one has endured a situation leaving the bitter feelings often spoken about.

Furthermore, when is closure appropriate? How does one know when “uncle” should be said aloud? Human nature brings to the forefront of our minds the guilt of closing chapters and starting new ones without dog-earring pages or going back to read the little foot notes we scribbled down on the way through our previous chapters. Growing up matures our minds and helps us better understand the messy, cracked wooden steps that have so conveniently been placed along our beaten path. Knowing that patience is a virtue is one of the many hardest lessons to learn throughout life however, as in Rabbi Nahman’s words, "If we won't be better tomorrow than we are today, then what do we need tomorrow for?"

Friday, December 24, 2010

What are you thankful for?

Merry Christmas Eve/Christmas everyone!

What are you thankful for? I would love to hear your feedback!


Thursday, December 23, 2010


Dear sweet Jesus, is it the holidays or what? As much as I love the holidays, it can be some of the most stressful times of the year! Working retail doesnt help either :) but either way, i have a job! So i am very thankful!

As stressful as these days can be, it is important to keep in mind that it can always be worse. I have found that a lot of people forget to be thankful and smile for those who may be having hard times.

Smile everyone! Enjoy everyday! Life will be so much better and brighter!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

2 dozen "i love you's" from halfway across the world

Often said by many females, "I am not used to this type of treatment. I'm so used to being independent and doing for myself that I don't feel right getting these types of things." You, my friends, are among the many, including myself. As the new year is shining its beaming lights, it's time to embrace these favors and not to question them! Allow yourself to be treated like an absolute queen! You deserve it!

And to all you men out there, treat your lady like a lady. Tomorrow, she may find someone that does. "Realize what you have" as one of my very close friends, Courtney, says.

Have a wonderful evening my loves!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Follow your own lead

Realize it. Believe it. Become it.

It is important to realize the power you have within yourself to be successful even in the most difficult situations. Many feel their background withholds them from being more successful than their descendants. The only way for you not to be more successful than your descendants, is your mindset. If you see it and you believe it; it will become of you. Open your mind to the possibilities. They are so endless.

Saturday, December 11, 2010


"When we get too caught up in the busyness of the world we lose connection with one another and ourselves."
Jack Kornfield

thought this was very good food for thought :)

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Painful Satisfaction

Hurry up and wait. A saying often said and experienced by those who encounter the lives of uncertainty; the said excitement of the drifters who do not plan, nor want, for anything other than happenstance company and comfort. Few have endured the recurring episodes of a hurried pace on the daily beaten path to attain the unspoken messages wrapped in little packages. They remain enclosed in a small box, only with a key to their freedom, allowing mixed emotions in opening the small lifeline to comfort. The seemingly motivated walk to freedom can be torn down by the emptiness the box may contain. A feeling so disappointing, only people of the same walk would understand. The wait for the next walk down the path seems so far away, as it has become life support. The painfully satisfying walk with optimistic uncertainty takes away any normalcy within the definition of comfort. The human nature for the temporary fixation begins to perfectly position itself in convincing the mind to press rewind and play in the daily routine. Thus, the hurry up to wait process becomes a disorienting release to satisfy cyclic actions.

such a process to wait.