Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Growing Pains

When is it safe to say that you’ve had enough? How does one feel okay with saying “uncle” when the other parties aren’t ready to throw in their towel? A caring heart can only handle so much until it is spread too thin and torn. Expectations, when disappointed, throw daggers at the bull’s eye. Often said that it is better to be stabbed in the front than the back; is it possible to want to be oblivious as to who has caused this sharp pain? Instances have proven that time heals all wounds however, does it rebuild the burnt bridges with ashes still smoldering beneath it? Or, on the other hand, does it leave a liability between the smoke clouds consuming the progress of the bridge? Does this allot for the river running beneath it to put out the ashes and clear the smoke to see the reality for what it is? And on that note, will the reality be the same or molded into a mirage to fool a kind heart into a bad situation? As we grow older, there are more catch 22’s than hard truths and honest situations. Many viewpoints differ when conversing on this subject yet it is a safe bet to assume one has endured a situation leaving the bitter feelings often spoken about.

Furthermore, when is closure appropriate? How does one know when “uncle” should be said aloud? Human nature brings to the forefront of our minds the guilt of closing chapters and starting new ones without dog-earring pages or going back to read the little foot notes we scribbled down on the way through our previous chapters. Growing up matures our minds and helps us better understand the messy, cracked wooden steps that have so conveniently been placed along our beaten path. Knowing that patience is a virtue is one of the many hardest lessons to learn throughout life however, as in Rabbi Nahman’s words, "If we won't be better tomorrow than we are today, then what do we need tomorrow for?"

Friday, December 24, 2010

What are you thankful for?

Merry Christmas Eve/Christmas everyone!

What are you thankful for? I would love to hear your feedback!


Thursday, December 23, 2010


Dear sweet Jesus, is it the holidays or what? As much as I love the holidays, it can be some of the most stressful times of the year! Working retail doesnt help either :) but either way, i have a job! So i am very thankful!

As stressful as these days can be, it is important to keep in mind that it can always be worse. I have found that a lot of people forget to be thankful and smile for those who may be having hard times.

Smile everyone! Enjoy everyday! Life will be so much better and brighter!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

2 dozen "i love you's" from halfway across the world

Often said by many females, "I am not used to this type of treatment. I'm so used to being independent and doing for myself that I don't feel right getting these types of things." You, my friends, are among the many, including myself. As the new year is shining its beaming lights, it's time to embrace these favors and not to question them! Allow yourself to be treated like an absolute queen! You deserve it!

And to all you men out there, treat your lady like a lady. Tomorrow, she may find someone that does. "Realize what you have" as one of my very close friends, Courtney, says.

Have a wonderful evening my loves!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Follow your own lead

Realize it. Believe it. Become it.

It is important to realize the power you have within yourself to be successful even in the most difficult situations. Many feel their background withholds them from being more successful than their descendants. The only way for you not to be more successful than your descendants, is your mindset. If you see it and you believe it; it will become of you. Open your mind to the possibilities. They are so endless.

Saturday, December 11, 2010


"When we get too caught up in the busyness of the world we lose connection with one another and ourselves."
Jack Kornfield

thought this was very good food for thought :)

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Painful Satisfaction

Hurry up and wait. A saying often said and experienced by those who encounter the lives of uncertainty; the said excitement of the drifters who do not plan, nor want, for anything other than happenstance company and comfort. Few have endured the recurring episodes of a hurried pace on the daily beaten path to attain the unspoken messages wrapped in little packages. They remain enclosed in a small box, only with a key to their freedom, allowing mixed emotions in opening the small lifeline to comfort. The seemingly motivated walk to freedom can be torn down by the emptiness the box may contain. A feeling so disappointing, only people of the same walk would understand. The wait for the next walk down the path seems so far away, as it has become life support. The painfully satisfying walk with optimistic uncertainty takes away any normalcy within the definition of comfort. The human nature for the temporary fixation begins to perfectly position itself in convincing the mind to press rewind and play in the daily routine. Thus, the hurry up to wait process becomes a disorienting release to satisfy cyclic actions.

such a process to wait.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

It's worth it

I may not understand a lot of things, but I understand that the struggle is worth the outcome. The worry is worth the relief from it all. The defeats are worth the triumphs. Hard work is appreciated and well worth it. God never puts you in a situation that you can't get out of, it's finding the solution. That's why he allows you to be your own person and be a grown up.
Carpe Diem!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

The Hearts Cry to a Soldier

The goodbye that sits on the tip of my tongue could never show the desparity my heart feels in the last caress of your hand. It is often that my pride overtakes my tears and I appear a blank pallet, nearly lifeless. I watch my heart walk away in one piece with blind hopes that it shall stay that way. In my last utter of the last three most important words I could ever say, I drop a tiny piece of emotion along my cheek; my faith is tested. Until next time my sweet love, I shall fear and love and wait and seek wisdom, all with a colorless blindfold; until you shall return to me.

Monday, July 5, 2010

The Power of Your Words

Recommended Read: The Power of Your Words by Don Gossett and E. W. Kenyon

I have always said that the importance of our words and how to use them, is the one thing we can always control when everything else seems to be in a complete whirlwind. As of late, I have encountered many people who have lost their way with words. I have never claimed to be the greatest of speakers however, I do take pride in how I have never stopped trying to perfect my words. I always allow the opinions to show my progression. Whether it be positive or negative, it is all constructive. From my experiences with both of these types, I have learned that not everyone is able to take others words and use it to motivate them. I yearn to inspire. I live to teach. I love to write and say what's inside. I hope others see that as well and look forward to what I have to say. One day, I know it will be very important to most. 

Thanks to my supporters.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010


“A happy family is but an earlier heaven.”

When I come home, in its rarety, I am taught a lesson each time. Allowing yourself to be in the moment, and not thinking of your next move, is something that I have learned in my time away from home. I smile a little more often, I give thanks a little more and I am taken back to my roots; humbling and grounding me once again. As we move along in our lives, I have realized that it is too easy to lose sight of how important it is to be able to come home and give true appreciation. I am aware that not all of us are able to relate however, to those of us who can, I recommend giving yourself a few moments to go home and appreciate your family and friends.

I am once again reminded of the simplicities of life. Being from the country, I am exposed to a country way of living. What I mean is, sitting with the people you love the most on the front porch or stopping by an old friends house unannounced and being welcomed with open arms. I understand there are not many who are able to feel this type of gratification, but I do know one thing....

I am proud of my roots and thankful to have them close by.

"Family is heaven in a heartless world."

Monday, June 28, 2010


My thoughts for the day....

Appreciation for your everyday things, that otherwise would be privileged to some others, is very important to remember. Even I, one of the most positive people I know, forget to do it sometimes. I plan to spread that type of positivity through my everyday experiences as well as teaching to others. Sometimes, everyone just needs someone to believe in them.

“Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams."

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Life's Output

Just recently, in the past 3 weeks actually, I have gotten my palm read 2 times. They were by 2 different people and in 2 totally different states, and the catch... They both said the exact same things. One had the exception of giving me a little more details because paid to do so ;)

My point is, is it that easy to read your life's output? Are there ways of telling yourself how to get out of a bad situation before it happens? My thoughts are 2 extremes; It works out to your advantage by saving you from strife or heartache or, it throws your whole life's plan away because of messing with your final destination. I am intrigued to know if people actually hold their life's plan on that one specific thought process. Although, I will say that i found it very interesting that i had gotten word for word answers from 2 different people.

My next point, is having control of your life, knowing it and using it to your advantage. Many people, if they feel they have a very unlucky life, it is entirely possible they will not work to their full potential and not become what they were destined to be. Which, thinking outside the box, it is very possible to not fulfill what you have been put on this Earth to do.

Its okay to be you

As someone who knows about boundaries and limits that are unknown to even yourself; youre not alone and never be too proud to ask for help or even talk to someone close to you. its okay to be you.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

What Life Is Meant To Be

Some would say I'm blindly optimistic because I believe there is good in all people... but that some have just forgotten how to show it. I tend to care too deeply, about everything. but I've come to realize that maybe that’s not such a bad thing, and that sometimes, people need someone in their life to care too deeply.
I don’t believe in taking the "easy way out." Life is meant to be difficult, confusing and messy... but the trick is to find the beauty in all of that. I believe that everything happens for a reason, each event in our lives molding us into the person God wants us to be. And just by looking at my family and friends, I know He places people in our lives to serve as angels to help push us along, and His timing is always impeccable.
Last but not least, I am a believer in true love. Although I have many questions, and sometimes feel as if real love is impossible to find anymore, I know it exists. And I have no doubt that one day everything will fall into place and I'll look into the eyes of the one I'm with and wonder why I ever worried in the first place. Corny, I know. So maybe I’m a little corny too.

I found this on one of my friends' myspace pages in their about me section. As I was reading over it, with slight tears, I had an epiphany. It is not about the love in which you find and keep in your lifetime, it is about the love you encounter.

Love can be many things. It can be an acquaintance that was just a passerby, giving you that much needed lift of the day. It can be that friend you can always call, no matter what time of day or night. It can be that friend that you rarely have the time to talk to, but no matter how long its been, you still pick up the conversation like it was yesterday. There's unconditional love, whether it be family, friends, or a significant other. 

As I sit and ponder of the many people I consider to fall under these categories, I dare to think of how I am considered in their eyes? I only ask this, because I do wonder if one would consider someone to be of another importance to them as they are to another?

As I am on my vacation in the beautiful state of Maine with one of my best friends from college, I was humbled by a statement by her 14 year brother saying to their mother, "Mom, its not about always having what you want, but wanting what you have." So mature, so precise, I thought. For a person like me, these types of things sink deeply into my heart and do not let go until they are poured onto something legible and in safekeeping. I often wonder if I am the only one who does this.

In the recent past, I have thought much about life, love and the path laid before me. Soul searching, if you will. If hindsight is 20/20, I am more than confident in my up and coming successes. Yet, I often wonder if it is the abnormal lifestyle I choose to live and the mindset to go with or if it is just something I possess that others simply dont. 

I am looking for followers and interested readers. I am looking for inspiration and positivity. I am looking for supporters and possible networking. Anyone want to join? Please let me know!

Sunday, March 14, 2010